out of body experience..?

i dont know why but i feel like im just going through the motions. maybe ill feel this way until im actually where i WANT to be..where i NEED to be. i cant shine here, nothing 'greater' is here for me. not now anyways. need to hustle hard and make shit happen! *sigh* still, it sucks to feel like im just going through the motions. all these amazing things are happening to my me and those in my 'circle' and in just about a months time! its a siiiggggnnnn!! looks like within the next 2-3 years we will be fancy nancys, weirdos, dysfuncfam in c-a-l-i...how exciting. after ca maybe NYC!! damn that would be soooo fucking crazzyy!!!!! <3 a girl can dream. go big or go home. =D